It's my birthday!

Suddenly i've truckloads of tim tams in my house. 6 from sydney colleague and another 4 from perth aunt. I'm not a sucker for titbits and chocolate craving is really a mood thing for me but they do taste very very delicious! Especially when you leave them out in room temperature and the chocolate coating starts to melt a little.

Hasn't got much to say about my birthday cos everything's been a windwhirl this week. There were however a few things that really got me. Angel emailed to say happy birthday and sorry he could only send his wishes through a lousy email cos he's away (amongst other things that's happening around since we hardly have time to have proper conversations), i felt the sincerity in those words. I think i'm a person who place alot of emphasis on words even though i absorb better than i could produce them myself. And it was 2 yrs ago that I realised I couldnt receive this part from bc. Yea it may seem unfair but i guess a big portion of my feelings are emotionally attached to words. Anyway I digressed. Benson was very funny...texted to say due to limited network coverage, nicholas couldn't send his regards so he's sending on behalf...lol...silly but it amuses me. And sy and sh who showed how much they understand their friend here with nic and da dong's photo attachments on my birthday card. I really really like the notion of it. I love you guys lots and lots!

Spiderman 3 was good. Been thinking alot lately how i'm not bothered by alot of things as much as i ought to be.
"your choices make you who you are" how powerful that we can mould ourselves the way we want to (almost) and how dangerous that can be cos fine lines exist in everything. We really shouldn't act or behave at will without thinking how our decisions and choices could and would affect our roles in life and how it would affect the people around us. That's why we need God becos He is the only foundation that is steadfast as a rock.
Humans waver, all the time.

Will be going town midnight tonight. Gotta take shots of the orchard underground tunnel when it's empty and also drop by the office to check out who's the mystery sender of the bouquet of flowers. Bc said his delivery is scheduled for tomorrow cos i'm on leave today but he doesn't know i'm also not working tmr. It was quite funny...i called and asked "hey u send me flowers is it." And he too, casually as-a-matter-of-fact replied "no leh, mine's tomorrow." "what flowers?" "red roses loh" LOL We've come to a stage whereby i no longer get agitated and give repulsive reactions towards his gestures. After 2 years i can finally settle my feelings and dine together at ease now. Although I still feel i'm an evil person for the decision i made 2yrs ago and that decision would warrant my singlehood for a loooong (or mabbe eternal) time but i stick to my philosphy of accepting the consequences for the decisions and choices I made for myself. So right now I guess that's the only way to move on, to face each other and not think about the past anymore. just move on.

Poor louis in an e-collar. He can't get into his kennel cos the collar's too big for the entrance and he keeps knocking against furnitures when making turns. Very clumsily amusing LOL. But he's getting better, amen. Mum's mopping the floor everyday and spraying disinfectant like more than what's necessary. She didnt do these when i was sick??!!

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He has the same "stare" look.