i'm in for it this time. had a scratchy throat working up on me this afternoon. and now the flu's starting. and the next thing that's gonna happen is insomnia tonight and then falling ill tomorrow. and good news is i did not finish my antibiotics 2 weeks ago when i was ill. hoo-lah.

now that school's out. i think it's time i do something about my constant self-rebuke for "ought to be more bothered by the things happening around me". so i made the efforts to pay more attention to alot of things lately, and the outcomes leave me even more emotionally tangled whether it is such a good idea to pay attention at all.